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Paprika Xu


Designer / growing gardens in Lutruwita / aural, somatic, poetic / part of Common而間, a small workers co-operative that reads books and makes softwares / previously led product design at Canva / always becoming / once a tumble leaf
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Obelisk


Jul 12, 2024  12:26am

i.
heaven is a long way to go
i collect these thoughts
climb up the revolving clouds
same way my frail body will climb over you
somehow, heaven knows that i was timid
time did not make me fearless
the present of age is that things end
        things fall apart
ripped, pulled, twisted, then turned
velvet cotton floss spun over these ridges
silver quicksand pounced into the black lake
for a glimpse of beauty
in you            i was silent for years

ii.
when he sings
“most people are gone”
all i hear was most people are
        gods
particles forsaken by the black holes
emitting what it fails to engulf
pulsing between thresholds 
splitting dissonance
quivering our reflections
in an irrevocable minute
for a whirlwind climax
with you            i absorb the shock of being

iii.
i sense
since our last departure
your heartstrings strengthened 
my tongue relaxed
every collision births the possibility
of another universe being born
for your brilliancy may wander
        all doors ajar
i take my cue from the lake
my fate as a fixed star
to distill, condensate, evaporate
for an annihilation upon meeting the eyes
of you            i agape with wonder

iv.
when most are gone
and our moon is new
opalescent disk floating
incandescent
against a blazing backdrop so vast
gods so infinitesimal
        unmarred
yet this sun is no threat
i return home, into you
               as i enter the atmosphere    
                       i burn off layer by layer




Heart rock


Jul 3, 2024  6:54pm

our rear tyre got a pinky size puncture
on the gravel roads that led us astray
pressure built up in the front seats
and leaked out from the back
fear is seldom wise and never kind
then we saw no seals
now in desperate need of sealants
a land bound miracle born out of a ocean myth
to put our air borne troubles
behind these waving hairs and icy ears
go where the wind goes
across the Atlantic, i hope
into the hand that holds tchotchkes
a rock
the fire opal of my heart




空想的餘地 Thread in the Clouds


Sep 1, 2023 Midnight @ Kanas, XingJiang

想想此刻
無聲無息是雲
變幻是心
想想你帶來的
沈默便捷
和你留下的
一望無際
空想的餘地




ILY_OLIVIA


Oct 5, 2023 11:59pm

in many ways we held together, this
longest bend known to my history
yet it makes me whole

Only it’s not about me
Love took on a new meaning
I caught myself fantasizing growing old
Venturing into our wrinkled bodies feeling
In each heartbeat
A little pulse of that sense of wonder in your eyes




Moonrise Lisboa


Sep 18, 2023 1:23am

it was a sunset in quiet everness
i whispered
how did the sun go
beating through your waving leaves
cloaking the entire sky blue
calling for flights of song
shutting a certain door
echoing neverness
and not
make a sound

it was a sunset
it does what time happens to it
as it happens
there, a gust of wind blew
all my gloaming
away




August 22


Aug 22, 2023

Emotionally

burnt out 
after
a home
went adrift
in Europe summer
and my tree hole got filled
up in
a skyless moon cycle
where my people slept
tucking my heart
away
from my poor damp body
saturated still
by the stars you lined up
on a whim




離離 Shimmering


Aug 16, 2023

問玻璃陰影的問題
你的未來在哪顆星
綿綿林夕

天台抓一隻螢火蟲
放喝一半的啤酒瓶
誰家燈火
離離

畫一個圓在空氣裡
讓想出的出進的進
青苔淋雨

火海浪飲沙的過去
空調水聽寓言結晶
未果陰晴

離離

影子醒著看我喝醉
下個瞬間一閃而過
掉進沙里




疑 Vicikitsā


May 4, 2017

我好奇如今
還能否在某處找到
純粹的分享的定義
再讓完整化解空虛
和用安靜填滿噪音
說到底畢竟
我也想用語言幻象
靠近你
拉攏你
排斥你
消滅你
就像你也瀏覽消費
留下讚美
半信半疑




Thirtieth


Jul 18, 2019

Released as part of LANTAU爛桃 (EP)

scroll back all the way to the beginning
memory leaks, glitches, unsorted, incomplete
summer days, river haze, blissfully ignorant
time out, dust to dust, ignorance is bliss

back from last time I knew it was a circle
a spiral, rather, upward and solo
round and around, same path I follow
different but the same, a joke I swallow

almost died last year, I know I didn’t
shattered glasses, twisted metal, in the bush hidden
said “luck! you got away with insurance monies”
granny who saved me said “kid take it easy”
said “you’re truly still meant to be here”
“we won’t forget the coast road from invercargill”
“will always think of you at your corner we travel it often.”
for these things they must happen for a reason

things are letters unwritten
in the bushes hidden
in the creeks hidden
in the hopes hidden

in the songs forbidden
the books forgotten 
regrets forgiven

attention, paying your biggest fortune
let it all go, dance! sleep. dance!
hug people often
wrap your arms around your own body
no curtains
clothing unnecessary
i mean, take a closer look
is it taken cared of lately
moments of crisis / zero degrees mornings
water the plants / damp pillow slips
touch upon touch / seasons changing
visualizations, positivities, weary airports
new leaves

by the time you remember time is renewed
time for doing nothing
for enjoying the joy
and feeling the feelings
time’s no circles it circulates in spirals
got time in no place and every place
no place at all

“you only are free 
when you realize you belong no place
you belong every place
no place at all.”




Party history


Feb 20, 2021

For Gabe

Here we are at the party
At the dusk, where sky is almost all but light and
nothing but people and things passing by
passing down the warmth and colour
in exchange of comfort
or poetry
this country, almost nothing but light and
All but poetry
You and I are passing by

        We met by the mirage harbour
        We met again on the desert island
        Spacetime is amiss
        We met finally by a mirage harbour on a desert island of light

For the last time
you and I passing down the pages and backpacks
passing through the prehistoric rainforest
where life may as well be all lively and no living
passing through the dusk til it’s dawn
on the other side of me being your witness
your history
and you being mine
passing through our bodies down to each molecules
electric pulses
traveling across many oceans
you going towards your history, your poetry
as I march away from mine


Here, we arrived at the party
and party is over
snap the line now as
you and I passing by.